hospital bedrest

Sitting here sucks! They finally admitted me last night, after being here for more than 30 hours not knowing what was going to happen. When my dr. finally came in and said I would be staying, all I could do was cry. I know this is what is best for Alexia, but it's not how it's supposed to be. I'm suppsed to be at home finishing her room and waiting for her. Instead I'm sitting in a bed getting poked daily, collecting my urine, hooked up to too many monitors, surrounded by people who worry. I'm 35 weeks 2 days, today. My dr. would like to wait until 37 weeks to deliver, but she doesn't seem to think I'll make it that far. My protein in my urine is creeping up, and my blood pressures are all over the place. I finally got to take a shower today, and I felt much better after that. I'm trying to make myself look decent for the people who show up to visit. My headache comes and goes...sometimes Tylenol helps, sometimes it doesn't. I did actually sleep pretty well last night...a combination of exhaustion, crying too much, and ambien. My back hurts from sitting in this bed. I can't find a comfortable position that lasts very long...and I try to be sitting up when people are here, but that's especially uncomfortable! I don't mean to complain, this just isn't how I wanted it to be. But, I keep telling myself that the next time I go home I will have Alexia with me! That makes me happy!

Bedrest

Actually, modified bedrest. My dr. wants me to still get up and move around so that I don't get any blood clots in my legs. Part of me knew from the very beginning of this pregnancy that I would end up on bedrest. And hey, who could ask for more right? You get to lay in bed all day and do nothing...which is great for me, since I pretty much didn't do anything anyways. The only problem lies here:
1)When she told me I would last about 4 more weeks before I have her, I freaked out...that's 2 weeks ahead of schedule, so there are so many things I was unprepared for.
2)The possibility of having to go on hospital bedrest is more scary because then I can't even sneak around to get things ready!
3)Boredom! I didn't know it would be this bad, but this is enhanced by the fact that I'm supposed to lay on my left side as much as possible. There isn't a whole lot you can do on your left side! I can't even see the tv very good on my left side!
4)No position is comfortable for very long! Sitting, laying, lounging...whatever it is I can't find a comfortable position for it! So I end up just flopping around like a beached whale!
I also feel bad because now Jacob has to work and then come home and do everything else! My mom and sisters are coming this weekend to help also. Which is nice, but I don't want everyone to feel like I'm helpless! I did the rest of Alexia's laundry yesterday...ssshhh! The only hard thing about doing laundry is reaching to the bottom of the washing machine! And I managed, so what's the big deal! She needed to have the rest of her clothes clean in case she decides to come early! I also worked on packing our hospital bags...fun times! So, there really won't be a whole lot for people to do when they come over to help this weekend! Jacob says he's going to have the laundry done before then so they don't have to. I am very thankful though for all the support everyone is giving me. Jacob's mom calls at least once a day to check on me. My grandma has called several times to check on me. And everyone just keeps telling me to call them if I need anything! It's nice to know that there are so many people, so close in case I need anything. That's why I chose to live in this town! Jacob didn't really understand why I didn't want to just stay in Tulsa...but maybe he understands now. Because even when he's at work he's only like 2 minutes from home! Well, off to check my other sites I creep on and do some more word searches!