The three up top is the blue on that I loathe. The one to the left is my very first baby blanket I crocheted. I've kept it for myself this whole time, and now I'll finally have someone to wrap up in it!
I finished the blue blanket this evening. I despise it...it is now my arch nemesis. I already wrapped it up so I wouldn't have to look at it anymore. It just annoys me...the proportions are off and there's no way to fix them. I hope these people enjoy this blanket...because I don't!
Jacob came home at 5 and decided we needed to go eat somewhere...bleh...I didn't want to get out of the house...but at the same time I did. I've been stuck here all week due to the ice, and I really should get out. But, I felt like ass. I finally fell asleep I don't even remember what time...but it wasn't a deep sleep. Every little noise would make me jump and then I would have to roll over to my other hip that wasn't already hurting. I still feel bad about putting my big mouth where it shouldn't be...but I guess we just have to take steps forward and hope everything works out...and pray everything works out...it has to right?!?
So, maybe when I'm up and can't sleep at night I should run on the treadmill or something. It's pretty loud, and I would have to plug it in like right outside the bedroom, so it would probably bother Jacob...but that would tire me down wouldn't it...or energize me more and make it worse! No, I don't think it gets worse than crawling into bed at 5 am and still not being able to sleep. Then this morning I had to get up at 8:30 because the car was stuck in the yard, so I got in and gunned it and Jacob pushed...I totally felt like I was going to wreck into something...and then get charged with DUI because I had taken so much stuff to make me "TIRED."
Speaking of...2 prenatal vitamins, 1 baby aspirin, 40 mg prozac. Then 10 mg ambien & 1050 mg tylenol pm...to somewhat make me drowsy. If that doesn't get it then I usually try 525 mg tylenol pm...if that does nothing, then I will take another 10 mg ambien. Is this the recommended dosage, no! But, if I did this without the ambien it would be at least 2100 mg tylenol pm...and I'm pretty sure all that tylenol isn't good for you! But, the way I look at it, neither is not sleeping. Anywho...I can't get anything else as far as the prozac goes until I have the baby. I'm supposed to go see a therapist...with a name I can't find on the website...but we're waiting to see if our insurance will pay something for it. Because I can't afford to go if I'm going to have to pay it all out of pocket. Also, my ob recommended that I take the ambien 5mg (half) every other night...with nothing else. Well, that's not going to happen. So, now I'm a druggy looking for a ambien refill! Anyways...this has already gone to far. I'm going to post those pictures and then I'm off to write down things to make sure to register for.