Wednesday, June 3, 2009

Haven't blogged

Posted by danielle at 12:05 AM
I haven't blogged in a while. I'm still keeping my journal updated almost daily. But, seeing as how I might get stalked out by certain people, some of the journal entries will remain on my computer only and not be posted! Things have been crazy around here. Lexi has an ear infection, so she's taking antibiotics. Now she has thrush on her tongue from the antibiotics. I haven't taken her to the dr. yet..that's tomorrow...but I'm pretty sure it's thrush. Hopefully he'll look in her ears and tell me that they are getting better. And hopefully she will get some medicine for her tongue, because apparently thrush is very painful...and she acts like it is. I'm going to see my PCP tomorrow about postpartum depression and my headaches. He's the one that prescribed the prozac a while back, so he has to be the one that changes the medicine or dosage or whatever, not my OB. I feel like I have PPD, but not like you hear about on the news. I don't want to hurt myself or Alexia. I just feel like the depression I was already battling is more exaggerated now. Whenever it would get really bad before I would lay in bed for days...and that's how I feel now. But, I can't do that because I have to take care of Lexi. I would never hurt her! I love her with every piece of me! I understand that some people are concerned about me because of things I have posted on facebook or twitter. Those are my feelings at that exact moment. I'm sorry I called my newborn "needy" but she is sick and has been awfully needy lately. When she came home from the hospital she was perfectly content to sit in the bouncy seat all day. Now, she just wants to be held all the time. I consider that a personality change, and I consider it needy...sorry if you take offense to that. I'm glad people are concerned, but I don't think it warranted that big of an ordeal! Anyways...
The BP medicine is helping my BP, but not my head like the PA thought it would. So, when I see the PCP tomorrow I will hopefully be able to get some headache medicine. I'm just worried because you can't take many depression medicines and migraine medicines together, but I don't know how they pick which one is worse! I also worry because I can't take anything that's going to knock me out or make me feel loopy! I'm here with Lexi all day, and Jacob can take care of her in the evenings, but I do nights because he works...so I need to be somewhat alert even at night!
Well, if things calm down and my journal/blog can get back to normal things will be updated more often!

2 comments on "Haven't blogged"

Melissa on June 6, 2009 at 3:32 PM said...

I am glad that you are taking yourself to the dr, a lot of women go through post partum depression and the fact that you know you are having issues and are going to get some help is a really good sign. I know you adore your daughter! I know that a dr will help you get better. I hate that a comment was taken way out of context...

Melissa on June 6, 2009 at 3:32 PM said...

OH yea and thanks for joining my blog!

 

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