Sunday, May 10, 2009

May 10, 2009

Posted by danielle at 11:12 PM
May 10, 2009-Mother’s Day-Today was the best Mother’s Day ever! Alexia didn’t get to come home, but I got to spend the day with her, and that’s all that matters! They moved her over to the open crib at 9:00 this morning. She did really good all day with her temps and feedings. Mom was there this morning when the dr. did rounds. He said she should be home in a couple days. The nurse said Wednesday at the latest. So, we know she will be coming home one day this week! I know that’s all only as long as she continues to do well. But, right now I have no reason to believe that she won’t do well. When they weighed her tonight she weighed 5lb 7.1oz. She gained a whole ounce today! She managed to pee on her daddy today! And she managed to poop 6 times during 1 diaper change. It was crazy…and it was crazier because Jacob was laughing uncontrollably! The saddest thing was that she got it on her clothes so we had to change her, but she kept pooping so she laid there naked for the longest time, and I know she was losing body heat. But, she was still above the coverline after we fed her, so she’s doing better. I just can’t wait to have her home with me, so I don’t have to worry about taking her temperature all the time. She also cried for about 30 minutes today because she was hungry and it wasn’t time for her feeding yet. I’ll be glad when I don’t have to worry about that either. I know babies should have a schedule, but I don’t think it needs to be so rigid that when she’s hungry 30 minutes before a feeding she can’t eat. She will set her own schedule for the time being! I’m still pumping. Not near as often as I should. But, I feel like I’m doing the best I can do right now. It’s been 2 days since I’ve tried to nurse, so I probably won’t go back to that anymore. Part of me feels sad, because I feel like it’s something I should do. But, the other part of me just feels relieved that she’s not having to work so hard to eat. I’m not sure how long I will even last with the pumping though. Its hard work and I know it will get more difficult once she’s here and I’m taking care of her and trying to pump. Jacob told me I was just lazy…which is probably partially true. But, I feel like there is only so much I can do right now…and I just feel so exhausted all the time. I know that’s going to get worse once she comes home also, because I won’t be getting full night’s sleep, like I have been since I came home from the hospital. I’m sure there will come a day while Jacob’s at work and Lexi and I are home that I just go to the store and buy a can of formula. I feel horrible and torn about that. Kristin and Brandon went to church today and asked for special prayers for us. I’m so glad she did. Prayers are the only thing getting us through this right now. I know it’s not as hard as what a lot of NICU parents have gone through. But, we went through a whole lot to get to this point. And this is a hard experience for us. Everyone goes through their own thing, and we have been very lucky that Alexia is doing so well. She could have been way smaller and way less healthy. But, that doesn’t take away from the fact that our baby has been in the NICU for a week, and we have to come home without her every night. I just look forward to the day (coming soon) when we will all be here like a normal family!

2 comments on "May 10, 2009"

Mimi on May 11, 2009 at 3:41 PM said...

Don't let anyone make you feel bad about how you feed your baby! You are the mom, and I'm sorry but you need to come first or you can't take care of her! It's important that you have the energy to love her. In 20 years she's not going to say,"Mom you gave me formula, I hate you"! That's ridiculous! You have been through a lot! Give yourself a break! It's not always easy to nurse a baby, especially one who is pre-mature. And you definitely won't have the time to pump all the time. It will be more important to use that down time to rest and get everything else in the world done that you need to do! Yes, breast milk is healthiest for babies, but you know what, there are plenty of well adjusted adults who are extremely healthy who were fed formula! People can only ask that you try, but once you've done that, you do what is best for all of you! Lexi would do much better with a happy rested mommy, than someone who is pumping like crazy and trying to be everything to everyone and then getting sad and depressed when she realizes she can't be! So try, but if it doesn't work out, don't beat yourself up, I don't care what the nursing nazis say! Naomi says otherwise, so tell them to suck it! (no pun intended!)

Mike and Connie on May 18, 2009 at 1:38 AM said...

What an amazing baby girl you have in your life...

You Rock!!!


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